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“No Daddy, I want to keep going.”

September 4, 2013

That picture was from when I was about six, I think.  It was my first road race and I remember it vividly.  I ran the entire one mile race with my Dad and I remember seeing the older runners race passed me.  I tried to keep pace, but my little legs wouldn’t let me.  I must have been getting winded and tired looking because my Dad asked me, “Do you want to walk for a while, Pink?”  (Pink was my nickname) I responded with puffs of air in between words, “No Daddy, I want to keep going.” It wasn’t the people that passed me that made me want to push forward–it was a desire in me to complete that mile to the best of my ability.  I didn’t want to give up.

Why am I bringing this up now?  Well, I have been thinking about it.  See, since that time I have become a procrastinator.  I have given up on several things and pushed them to the side and never finished them.  I look at that picture and it makes me wonder, “What happened to that girl?”  Well, when it comes to finishing this book and continuing to write and pursue my dreams, I am clinging to that same mindset.  “I want to keep going.”  I don’t want to slow down.  It wasn’t those people passing me that pushed me on, but it was my own desire in me to prove to myself that I can do it.  I need to keep pushing myself now and remember that pushing yourself for your own determination is the best driving force on the planet.