I am ten chapters into my editing.  I have twenty-two chapters in the book, so I am about half way finished with edits and re-writes.  I have to be honest.  This has been hell, but also pretty fucking cool.  I let the story simmer over the holidays and I read several books.  It was needed.  I had to recharge and meet it head on with fresh eyes.

There is still a cynical part of me that is in the back of my thoughts laughing and declaring, “Ha!  You thought you could write a book.  Look at this shit you have written.  It sucks!”  Want to know the interesting part of all of this?  Okay, I will tell you.  One of my characters has some serious issues with haunted thoughts.  Granted, his thoughts are way darker and have some serious trauma attached to them.  But, I have been remembering his mantra and applying it in my life when these thoughts creep in.  I am not going to say his mantra now, because I want you to read my book.  🙂  Whoever you are out there in cyberspace reading this.

I read something today from one of my favorite authors that really made me remember why I am doing this and after reading it, I felt the little Cynic start to retreat.  Colleen Hoover  is seriously awesome.  The poem in the post that I just linked is from one of her characters in the Slammed series.  Her entire post though is perfect.  I read that today and I remembered why I was doing this.  I needed to forget about all the BS I was thinking about my story.  I needed to remember the feelings and the characters and why I wrote them in the first place.

I love words, plain and simple.  I love words.  I love how they make me feel and I adore how they connect each of us.  I say that a lot, I know.  But, it is my truth.

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Okay, a new thing I am going to start adding on the end of here is what ever game and/or book I am currently reading or playing at the time of my post.  Why?  Well, because I want to.

Currently Playing:  The TellTale Games series on Xbox.  I finished up Walking Dead Season One, and started  season two.  They are freaking fun as hell, but kind of stressful.  It is more a survival game with zombies, than a game about zombies.  After I devoured those games up until  the most recent episode, I began Wolf Among Us, which is about Fabletown and involves fairy tale characters.  I love these games because it is like reading an interactive book, where you choose how the story will go.

Currently reading:  Outlander by Diana Gabaldon.  About 60% through with it and have to say, I really love it.  Time travel, kilts, sword fights, druids, freaking awesome.